July 26, 2004

• 3 weeks later...

  
  

  I'm back from a pretty full break. So full of food, asian from Cali and Cajun from New Orleans. Thanks for everything aunt and uncle for making Cali what it is. and Thanks to friends who tagged along to make New Orleans possible.

  
  

  So what did I do alot of the time on break? Eat of course, ha, anyone couldve guessed that...

  
  

  Ah, what? Its Me, Bo, my aunt, and Thien (chinatown):
  

  
  

  Here's half of the people that was at the 4th of July celebration in Cali, all related to me, watching a poop load of fireworks my uncle bought for us ^^:
  p.s.: see that puddle? my lil cousin almost peed on me! he's only 5. Grrrrr.
  

  
  

  One of the better things in Life. Definitely.
  

  
  

  70% of the summer list is done, but I still got the harder 30 to go =/

  
  

  I've tried, I really have, those who were around me know I got over my last relationship mostly to myself, crying, not eating, not sleeping, depression all to myself...

  
  

  Months later, I find myself still being referred as someone that (she) wish she wouldn't have met...

  
  

  I have a memory too, all relationships has its ups and downs, but I've been an optimist all my life, and thus remember the good times as well, instead of the bad, isn't that what memory is for also...?

  
  

  Not once have I uttered a single word of hate, of regret, or anything negative…

  
  

  yet, I'm not worthy to be a part of someone's past...

  
  

  I guess its time to lighten my chest...

  
  

  Before I start of the foreshadowed paragraph that is to be typed, I would like to state how I trully feel relationships work, and it is what holds especially true for first time serious relationships from my experience of friends and acquaintances. If the male of the relationship restrains feelings himself and even makes an ass of himself, once in a while when he does something unselfish, or even just something a little bit nicer, the female looks at it as if he cares, and takes into consideration that act of kindness much more valuable than example #2's male. I guess girls feel like Example#1 guy is a challenge and they can, with enough effort, change him into a better guy, and keep at it at a relationship. Example #2 is the type of male that fell head first into the relationship, gives up everything he has, and shows his feelings with no limit, even hurting himself in the process, unfortunately the female of this particular relationship takes the acts of kindness for granted and whoop! there goes male #2. I have seen so many of my good guy friends becoming #2, truly great guys, which are gentlemen to the ladies out there. And yet, they are passed up for lesser goods. Life is Irony.

  
  

  I, unfortunately, but with no regrets, have become a #2 myself. I sacrificed family and friends time, to the point where the people I knew and was close to, before the mentioned relationship had even occurred, began to get upset with me. Chose a university based on being close to the person I had started this relationship with. Gave all my efforts to drive up and always set time aside to make sure the relationship had ample amounts. Maxed out my limit on money many times to be able to do so. When her (A) belly rumbled, I cooked or bought food. When (A) was bored, there were movies, malls, and the like. When an occasion came up, eating out and gifts was the answer. I feel uncomfortable letting the female pay. I remember the small things that make a girl feel like a lady, opening doors, hand at the small of the back, pulling out chairs, and things of that nature. I never ever paid any attention to any other girls, regardless of attractiveness, intelligence, or entertainment value. So many things to say, but time is running out because I have to go soon, but I think you all get my gist. I, with all my heart, know I am a genuine good guy. All my friends and family can vouch for my loyalty and reliability as someone to know. It is just painful to be referred to as someone that anyone wished they would've never met, esp. when I did care so much for that person...

  
  

  I cannot help how Life turns out but only make the most of it. We all have our own yays and nays, but I suppose its all about how we take the news thats the most important. I am still living life without regrets, making decisions that everyone has to make at some point or another in Life. Everything we do is all up to ourselves...

  
  

  There is only one thing that has been said that is correct so far.Yes, I am much happier now than I was before. I've grown so much, learn that much more, and have found many things much better.

  
  

  Back from a quick trip back to midland. Still boring and kinda trashy as it always has been, but still reliable in having the same ol' Midland feeling I guess. My mom always being very perceptive as usual, and her uncanny ability to judge a person after meeting them once. She has always been right before, and I hope she continues to be right. Something tells me she is. Crazy how fast time flies by eh, friends? I went by the old places we all use to go by. Grasslands, mall, bowling alley, etc. Just driving by to reminesce. I miss Rosa's cafe. Good old times.

  
  

  In a fortnight my brother shall be here. Nguyens filling up this apartment fast. Ha.

  
  

  Ah, time flew, I have to go to the gym. I hope you all are kind of entertained, if not, hey, I didnt say it would be. =) But take care family and friends, and I'll see you as soon as I can.
  
  Ha, I'm on a plate:

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