December 11, 2003

  • Thanks for the e-props and the comments, the more the better


    I always liked the one thing that keeps many people going... hope. Ive been an optimist for as long as I could remember, and try to help people see things as half-full. Of the late, life decided to unload a gargantuan-sized piece of crap on me, or maybe perhaps a series of crappings. First, my baby camry decides to break down, thus forcing me to sell it, since the cost of fixing it is more than what it is worth blue book. My managers at work have been recently decided to grow into power-mad, stick up the ass mood around techs.  I Absolutely hate a couple of my co-workers. With those two reasons, my job that i liked so much is turning into crap. With my new car, i found the insurance to be higher than the car payments themselves, my apt. rent, and all other bills i have. My attempt for the 4.0 full-time school and full-time work in a hospital an hour a way wasnt as perfect as planned. I still have a ticket i have to take care of, on the first day i got my car!, although a truck was speeding faster than I, the f*cking pig chose me. My roomate have decided to leave and break the lease, thus forcing me to move into another apt more expensive than this by the end of the month, as well as having no electricity for the past couple of nights... the nights i needed Most, for they were my finals studying time, which was a HUGE pain in the ass. My depression grows, as i long for things that could make my life move so much smoother, yet i could but trudge along, as i hope and keep my head up. There is so much weight to bear, and so much shit to go through, and much thinking and depression to pass. As I feel like I'm about to drop, fall and never get back up, waving everyone to go pass me, It hits me that i am me. Simple words of encouragment from friends can boost me as sugar can to a little kid, and simple things like naruto can express that with determination things will change, fate is not determined because you shape it with the decisions you make. I am me, and I will stand until the end. As life decides to crap on me more, I will take its shit and deal with it. I may bitch here and there, because i am only human, but more importantly I Will move forward. There is hope for all, and many are in worse situation than i could be, therefore I have to continue to walk the road of life. Therefore, lastly, I am aware this might jinx me, but bring it on life; because its gonna take a hell of a Lot more than this to bring down this Tri.